Keep me

Often times the best way I can share my heart is through a song. They just always seem to say the right thing. So many times I will have a song that really speaks what I want to. The last few weeks have been challenging for me, hearing God and feeling His presence has become a fight. Others in my class are dealing with this too. God is calling us for more, to move past that beginning phase and move on to deeper longing, greater sacrifice, more vulnerability. And it's going to take us to new levels of freedom, excellence, joy and greater anointing. So through this time of pressing in more, this song came to me as I sat with Him, just trying to hear Him, feel Him. This song is my hearts cry today. I pray this over my class as we seek for more.



Lyrics to Keep me;
Here I stand before you,
and here I bare my soul,
here I am longing,
until I see your face,

Keep me, Keep me, let me hear you,
Keep me, keep me, let me hear you,

Here I am undone,
And here I am in awe,
And here I lay my life down,
To know your ways,

All I want is to be near to you,
all I need is to see you,

Keep me, keep me, let me hear you,
keep me, keep me, let me hear you,

I can hardly wait!!!!

Only 15 days, 22 hours, 34 mintues and 45 seconds till I get to go home and see my family for the first time since September 19 at about 3 in the afternoon. Yes, I am so so so excited!!! It can't come fast enough for me. I can't wait to see all their faces and go get our tree, and make cookies and other food for Christmas, spend the day playing with our new toys, then spending the next two days after Christmas with extended family and getting to meet my first second cousin!!!! It's all so so so exciting. Today I am having a hard time focusing on homework and other things that need to be done because all I want to do is go shopping for gifts!!!! But with two weeks left, I don't want to rush it away.

This past weekend we had a busy time!! Friday night was Christmas caroling with on of the churches. Then Saturday was our monthly homeless outreach where we served food, handed out clothes, and just talked to a large number of homeless people downtown Oklahoma city. I have never really worked with the homeless before so it was kind of sad to see so many cold people who would come through the line over and over again just to get good meal for once. then Sunday was riverside school Christmas party. This is a school for kids who are in trouble or are just not wanted by their parents and pretty much every single one was Indian. So a bunch of churches from all over the state work together to buy gifts for some 600 kids who live there. We helped pass out gifts and got to spend some time just talking with the kids. It was cool to reach out and be able to minister to these kids.

So two weeks left, I'm not going to waste it. I am going to enjoy this Christmas season, and enjoy where God has me. He is going to do amazing things in us in these two weeks, and I don't want to miss it. So I'll spend a few more minutes acting like giddy excited chipmunks waiting for Christmas, then off to reading and memorizing for me. So enjoy this happy time to celebrate what God is doing, He is working and moving and you don't want to miss this one!!!

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas...

WOW!!! This last month has just flown by, leaving me wondering where time has gone and why it has been so long since I last wrote. And now it's almost Christmas time and time will continue to fly by!!! I am going to try to tell you all that has been going on and keeping me away from this poor neglected blog. On Halloween we had "trunk or treat" party at the church and me and my roommate were dancers. Dressing up for Halloween was another first for me. Another new experience for me was my first birthday away from home. I thought this would be one the hardest birthday's ever, but I was quickly proven wrong. It started the day before my birthday when I was told a few girls had walked in the church wanting more info about Master's commission and that I should talk to them about it, I walked in the office and there was my two amazing friends, Leah and Jessica from Michigan!!!! They came to celebrate my birthday with my and I have never been so surprised in my whole life. Anyone who was there can tell you I just stood there in shock and didn't know what to say or do. It was a great surprise!!!! My class also made it a very special day with cards and gifts and cake!!! My family sent me lots of awesome gifts that so blessed me!!! Also, that whole weekend we had a former MC from WA come and teach us dance for the tour we do in the spring. It was all very tiring, and sometimes frustrating but also very fun!!!

A few weeks ago we went to our first Microsoft show to raise money. That was a very good experience for all of us. My favorite part was getting to know the other MC's from all over and getting to hang out with them. Then it was thanksgiving. I went and stayed with a friends and her family for the week here in OKC. We did lots of playing cards, watching movies and football and eating!!! It was lots of fun. I also got to spend a night with my Oklahoma little sister and her family which again was tons of fun. Even though it was hard for me to not be at home with family, I was still able to feel very loved and cared for down here. So thank you everyone!!!

Only about 22 days till I will fly home to spend Christmas with my family. before that we will still have about three weeks of class, Christmas party with the whiz kids we tutor, and the talent show. This is always my favorite time of year and I love getting ready for Christmas!!!! I am so excited to see what the Lord is going to do in my class in the next three weeks as we dive back into this lifestyle!!!!

Nope, Nope, Nopedy nope,

I almost got stuck again today people, thankfully the Lord stooped me. Let me set the scene and maybe you can relate to this. Senor year of highschool, doing the same thing over and over again, for me it was church, Spanish class, youth group, babysit and fire-up. My life in a net shell. It was repetitive. After a few weeks the newness and excitement wares off and I was just going through the motions. Sometimes I felt like I was a robot just programed to do moves and go here and go there. I was stuck in a rut. Yes every once and a while I would get excited about something new, like spring break or retreat or craft day or chuck-e-cheese!!!!! But it would never fail to always go right back to where it started, repetitive. But one day it stopped and there was more to life, infact A LOT more to life. I graduated and would never have to do some of that stuff again, and suddenly I was wondering why I let my self get so stuck.

Can anyone other then me relate to that? I mean people are like zombies sometimes, just walking around looking straight a head. I was caught yesterday doing that, and I have only done this for four, almost five weeks. I was stuck, just going to class, just doing drama, just doing uturn, and yes, just doing daily clean. But my heart was not there, I wasn't looking for what God was going to teach me and tell me. What if instead of just having to do the same thing over and over and over again, we GOT to make the most of the time we have and look forward to what new and exciting things that God is going to do today!!! I think if we would just be able to stop looking straight ahead we might be able to catch his little wonders in everything we do. I only have on year to be a MC student, this is it and I don't want to wonder at the end of the year why I spent so much time just doing and not truly enjoying.

Yes my phone still hates me and yes it is warmer in MI today then here and yes I didn't sleep very well because I couldn't stop coughing and yes we are missing half our carpool this week and yes I still have to fill out a time log, but God is still speaking to me. I still get to spend everyday seeking after His face and I still get to be lost in His love and yes, always and forever will I still be taken care of by the one who calls me his favorite. I STILL am truly loved by Father and many others.

So if you ever see me walking around like a zombie again, stuck in a rut, just hit me over the head or write me a note or talk to me or give me club or something so I know I am stuck. Try climbing out of your rut today and see what you find in the light, it just might change your life!!!!

In my daddy's love...

Friday was what we call the encounter. We did lots of worshiping and soaking in the love of God. We also did lots of healing ministry, the Lord healed me of some deep inner wounds that day. But while I was soaking at one point the Lord gave me this picture that I want to try to share with you. It was the most beautiful picture I have ever seen and still today I can see it as plain as when he gave it to me. There is no way I could use words to describe this picture, no paint or artist could put it on paper, only my father who gave it to me.

I saw a little girl who had a pretty dress on and she was swinging and she was laughing and giggling but no one else was with her. Then I saw God looking down at her and laughing and giggling right alone with her. It was as if nothing in the world mattered, she was just enjoying her Father and he was enjoying her. She has the best dad in the world and she knows it without any doubt that her daddy is in love with her. She is accepted by him and knows he will never let her go.

As if that was not beautiful enough to me, he then said to me "This is you Hannah". Wow was all I could think and just let myself be loved by Him. I know my daddy love me!!!!!

Prophetic art

Something we do in MCs a lot is prophetic painting. We ask God to show us a picture and we paint it or draw it. One day this week after lunch we all went outside and asked God to give the class a painting. This is what he gave us:
Basically its our journey this year. Having a broken heart as hard as stone and climbing our way to God's heart which is his carriage. The stars are us pulling his heart to others and furthering his kingdom. The sunset represents the sunsetting on who we were before and the change that is coming this year.

We are to cool for school...so went to Master's commission!!

My Class!! That's right for the first time in my life I have a class!!! This is one of the many firsts for me this year. I also have a locker for the first time EVER!! and I have a dog for the first time EVER!!! I have to get up super early every morning for the first time EVER!!! and many more. Life is going good down here in this awesome state. I am getting used to this life and greatly enjoying it. Getting to know lots of people and learning to call this my new home. With it comes many new challenging as well as good times. Missing family and friends at home has been a big challenge but that is when his grace and mercy keeps me going.

I want you all to meet my class!! There is eight of us students from all over the world!!! I love them and they are my MC family. I love getting to know them better and growing in the Lord together as a team. Let me introduce ya'll to them.

This is Laura, Ariana and MeMelissa and SarahLevi, Ryan and Joseph

I love these people so much and I feel so blessed to spend almost everyday for the next year learning with them. Last weekend we went camping in the Wichita Mountains. Other then waking up in the middle of the night soaking wet, and finding ticks, it was a blast!! It's a very beautiful place to camp and it was very different from camping in MI. We went to a great burger place on Friday for lunch, went on a hike around a lake, and just enjoyed being out in the beauty that God made. This is a picture of the whole group(including interns, staff and pastor Dwight) on top of MT. Scott.

Later I will tell you about my awesome house, and host family and my sweet roommate. God is doing good things in this class and it's going to be a good year. Keep praying that God will continue to connect us together as a class, that he would keep moving in amazing ways, that we we would be able to impact people with his love. Love you all!!

OKLAHOMA....my new home.

We are here!!! In Oklahoma City, the place I will for a year and call my home. Right now it's all excitement to be here, hangout and see the city today, and meet my classmates tomorrow!!! It has not hit me yet that I will be saying goodbye to my family and that I'm not going home with them on Sunday. And that I can't just call my friends and go take over eastwood and see free movies, and go to lunch with them. It all just feels like another vacation, not reality that this is my life. My new home. I think it will start to hit home this weekend when I go to church and move in to my new house. This is a new beginning, a new chapter in my life. So Hello new home!! It's time to embrace the moment and Jump in, no matter how scary it feels, this is what He has called me to do.

The poll is closed and the results are in...

Well, Tuesday has come and almost gone and my family and I are sitting in the hotel after a short trip, only six hours :D So, we left about 11:20am which means all of you who voted for 10am are the winners!!! and it had the most votes so you must know my family well!! It was a good trip, I didn't realize how tired I was from all that packing and not sleeping till I got in the car and couldn't stay awake. Lots of sleeping and jamming to Jesus culture and Jake Hamilton!!!! We got in Springfield about 6 MI time. Got some steak in shake and went swimming. Now everyone is sleeping and I am just counting the hours till I will be in Oklahoma!!!! Tomorrow is sight seeing around Springfield which should be great fun. Way to go voters and all four of you who voted 10 get the prize!!!! If their was one I would be sure to give it to you :D Thanks for playing with me!!!

GO STATE!!!

Today was shopping with Mom for all that stuff I needed, ya know the wal-mart run. And I am happy to report that we got pretty much everything I needed!!! It was so God and totally awesome. So that and getting all my music moved over to my new computer are my praise reports for today. I feel like it is all coming together now, every piece is fitting in just right. It feels so good. One week from today I will be in Oklahoma!!!!! AHHHH!!!! Talk about crazy. So the plan is Tuesday, my family and I are driving to Springfield IL and staying there for two nights and doing some sight seeing and then Thursday we are going to St. Louis and seeing the arch and from there driving to Oklahoma city, my new home :D Friday we are going to hang out around town and hopefully see some awesome stuff with our other sister who lives there :D Saturday we have a lunch where I get to meet my class and staff and host families. And that night is our induction service!!!!! Where we become real MCs. A dream I've had since I was 13 is almost here, something I thought was way to good to ever come true, is only a week away....WOW!!!!!

So that is what is going to be happening in the next week and after that is all just one big adventure that God is taking me on. I will be sure to let you know how the trip goes. And last and very important is that today is week two of collage football and my team (MI state) is playing at home against central MI. So friendly reminder to wear your Green and Cheer for the only colors, GREEN AND WHITE!!!!! GO STATE!!!!!!

New poll

Ok I need your help by voting on what time you think we are going to leave for Oklahoma on Tuesday. We are going to Springfield Illinois which according to google is about 6 hours away. This is a short trip for us so we could leave at anytime that day. Humor my family people!!! I will let you know what time is the closest. So everyone VOTE!!!!

I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!

It's coming fast and one week from today my family and I will be leaving for Oklahoma!!!!! I can't believe it. I'm mostly just excited right now. Not to nervous yet but oh so excited!!!! Very stressed with packing and all the last minute hanging out with people but in a week that will be over!!! So today I am going to be excited because this is one of the most amazing adventures of my life. I am going to enjoy it while it lasts, while I'm not freaking out yet ;) So here are my three excitings for today!!!!

1. I found out last week who I am going to live with all year and got to talk to her!!! Her name is Carol and I am so excited to live with her. Also, I will have a roommate which I am soooo excited about. We are going to have a girls house!!!! I talked to Carol last week and talked about my room and lots of other exciting things!! Point is, talking to her and knowing who my roommate is, has got to SOOOOO excited! 11 days and get to meet these awesome people that God has put in my life!!! I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!

This is my I'M SOOO EXCITED LOOK!!

Numero dos: Today is the first day of school in Michigan, and in my house. But I slept in, played on the computer all morning, and I'm going to the mall later!!! This is the best first day of school EVER!!! haha for the first time in my life I could enjoy labor day knowing I could stay up as late as I want because I don't have to get up in the morning!!!! I'm sorry if you are reading this and you are still in school and just started but no hate mail people, I AM JUST SOOOOO EXCITED to not be in school anymore. It rocks. So to all the people in high school still, just wait, your time to rub it in is coming, it's coming. I am going to enjoy this day!! Because I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!


3)My favorite band came out with a new CD today and I am going to buy it today and play it over and over and over and over and over and well, you get the point :D If you have never listened to Barlowgirl before, you need to. They rock my world. See over the last year my obsession with contemporary christian music has died. I can't stand it anymore. I love worship music and that is about it for the christian category. But this band keeps making music and I keep buying it and loving it. Maybe it's because the words are so good along with the sound. They are all about reaching this generation for God and that is where my heart is too. So I am SOOO excited to rock out with my girls today and I can't wait to have to CD in my hand!!! I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!

So there, that is my excitement rants for today. I am excited and it's better then freaking out because I only have a week left so I am going to go with it today!!!




P.S. The number things are for you Jackie!!! Love you girl and I'll never forget that awesome spanish class. <3

Your love is like...

Only two weeks left!! Can you believe it? I can’t, time is going so fast and there is still so much to do before I leave!! It’s got me going AAAHHHHH!!!! Who took all that time I had left? Truth is, I don’t think I will really be able to believe that I am going to be in Master’s commission till the day I meet my class and then maybe it will become real. It’s SO scary to think about leaving home and moving in with people I have never met before. Often the last few weeks I have found myself lost in my thoughts (if you know me, you know this happens often ;) thinking about what it will be like. Sometimes I want to freak out and most the time I end up asking myself the question “what am I doing???”. But that is when I have to grad a hold of those thoughts, take them captive and answer my question with “I am hungry for more Jesus and this is how he has called me to jump out of my comfort zone and seek Him more”.

See, thinking to much can not be safe at all. I could totally let it take me over with fear and spend the next two weeks freaking out with fear of the unknown or find peace the only I can right now. That is getting lost in how much Father loves me. My new favorite song of the month (or one of them) is ‘Your love is like’ by Rick Pino. My favorite part says this: Getting lost in the gaze of eyes, getting lost in the warmth of your smile”. And that is my key through getting through this next two and a half weeks before it all begins. I have to spend the time I would normally just thinking about it, lost in the gaze of my Father’s eyes shinning on me with love.

So much to do so little time, so many people to see and such a mess in my room to clean. But today before I pack like crazy for only the 5^th time in less then three weeks and run off the cousins house for some swimming and camping fun, I’m going to take just a few minutes and get lost in how loved I am. If you have never heard this song I encourage you to take just a minute and watch this random video I found on youtube that has the song in it, and get lost too. Just sit and let it drip down, let the heavens drip down on you. It will be worth not spending the time in fear or thoughts of the unknown, I promise for just a moment, if you let it, life will fade away and all that will matter is the love He has for you. Try it!!!

1 month left!!!!!!!

Yikes how time is flying by as I sit back and watch. Where is it going? How is it that, schools are starting, people are leaving, and leaves have started turning already? Well, it's August friends and it's that time of year and in one month from today I will be meeting the people I get to spend ten and a half months with, meeting the family I'm going to live with, and having to say goodbye to my family that I have never been away from for more then 13 days!! But looking past these earthly things is something I was reminded of this last weekend. See, our life is about the connection we have with God and his love. It's all about him and how much glory we can bring to his name. The Lord woke me from lost vision syndrome. See, in the crazy life of graduation, trying to get all my application stuff in, reading books and writing papers on them, traveling all over the country, and trying to spend as much time as I can with my family and friends I lost the vision I had for going to Master's Commission. It was suddenly just the thing I was doing and going to in September. I lost the dream that I've had since I was 13 to give up a year of my life for seeking God. But as the speakers at the conference that I was at last weekend spoke about having a constant connection with God that requires us laying down our everything to gain, I saw again why I am leaving my comfortable home to live with strangers. The Lord is calling me to live a life of surrender and lay down me to seek more of Him. I want to be totally sold on Him, lost in obsession for my King and the only way I can have that relationship is by laying down me to be more in love with Him. Don't think for one minute that this will be easy at all, in fact it is going to be pretty hard but how bad do I really want it? Bad enough to give up a year of my life to follow where He is calling me to be. It's pretty scary to think of all that is going to happen in just the next month but I am sure that it will only bring me closer to Him if my mind is fully focused on Him and off myself.





So this last month as I prepare to leave the only home I have known, as I pack all I am taking with, and say goodbye to people who have been in my life for so long I want my heart to burn for my Lord. I don't want to be caught up in the moments of leaving but be excited for the great adventure that is to come. 31 days is not a lot of time but I am praying for joy, more then I have ever had to move in His will and surrender my life to Him. So if I get to see you before I leave remind me of all the great times we have had and the many more to come because those will forever be in my heart. This is just the beginning of an adventure so great and I hope to keep posting on all the wonderful things God is going to do in this exciting year to come. Remember today how much you are loved by our King and you will be blessed!!!